I guess at a loss for words. I am si lost about what to think. <----- That is me.

Okay just this morning. Well, lets back up the hubby and I got into an arguement over some stupid stuff this past weekend. He got mad and left for like 4 hours. He was blowing off steam and no big deal. But okay here is where I am really at a loss. We have been working on things. Had some real positives happening.But this morning I went into his wallet for his insurance card to get a number off it for a claim I was working on. There in his wallet was a condom. Let me state husband and I never use condoms at all. Okay and there is a receipt for gas and a 3 package box of condoms. He bought these yesterday. Soooooooo he gets up today and I ask him about it. he turns it around onto me. Telling me how I am a snoop and nobody has any privacy in this house except for me. That he was ONLY doing that to test me by buying this package of condoms. he said he threw the other 2 away and left the one in his wallet because all he needed was the one to prove his point. Now when he came home yesterday I called him on the cell and asked him if he was soon to be coming home because I may have to go into work. Okay turned out I didn't have to go into work. But he came home soon real soon after that call. This bothered me a little because the only person I know who lives that close to us is this girl he works with. ( she is married and much to young for my husband in my opinion) I know he talks to her but deep dpwn I have never really worried about my husband having an affair. So I was just a little agitated at him and told him false alarm I don;t have to go to work so you can go back to X's house again. So today when I am confronting him he tells me yeah I even told X about what you said at work this morning and she said man your wife is an aXXhole doesn't she know I am married. I told him I thought that was inappropriate for him to be telling her anything and making me look bad to people I don't really know. He said I am not the one who said that about you she did. He was just in complete denial and acting irrogant! So when I approach him again I am going to tell him I will confront her myself. Do you think that is a good idea or bad? Part of me just thinks he is full of crap that she said anything. But maybe I am wrong. I guess kind of like calling his bluff. He started telling me also that I am just like my dad and want to make this all about me.

I did devote myself to work on this marriage. But man I just don't know. Also he had his ring off and told me he only took it off because he does that at work. Which I do believe. But I know he didn't have that ring on yesterday but he keeps telling me he did.