Haven't written in a long time. To recap… my H had an affair with a secretary while working thousands of miles away from home. It was short lived and he has returned home to kids and I. We have been in counselling since January (he returned home in September). The counsellor is wonderful and has helped us greatly. She has helped me with depression and has helped my husband get in touch with his feelings and to understand the feelings of others. Together we have seen the counsellor as a family and she has helped our kids forgive their father and has made both my husband and I realize they were affected greatly by him being an absentee Dad. Our love life has returned to that magical early marriage stage and we are happier now than ever. But then it happens… I become myself again. The one who sticks up for herself and has strong opinions. My husband gets his back up and says he hates confrontation. I push him and he says that is one thing that attracted him to the Ow … she didn't argue with him. Did I say she is a Francophone whose mother tongue is French, and whose background is totally different from his or mine? I get so discouraged. I love him but don't know if I can live with him. I am afraid he is thinking of leaving. Why do I need him so? Why am I afraid of living without him?
