Hi. I have been together with my partner for almost 2 years, and we are apart since September. Actually I dont think there is any real chance of getting together again, because he is very much afraid of commitment, and after what I got to know, I am not sure it would be a good idea. I beleived for a long time that my partner and I are made for each other, and if he ever decided to put more energy in the relationship, it would work. It is probably not reality. But to me thi man was the symbol of honesty. I believed every word he said. And it is still hard to believe that I have no idea who I loved for 2 years. About a year ago by accident I found out, that he does a lot of sex chatting on the net, which hurt me only for one reason: with me he did not communicate too much about our sex life. But he said he is only exchanging sex pics, and he will stop. But a few weeks ago (of course long time after we broke up), I found out that he did continue under a different nick, and even during the time we were together and comfortable with each other, he was searching up ads of women for sex, and was setting up threesomes (2 guys, one girl). I do not know if anything came of it, but I under shock since this came to light. I was told that it does not mean that he was lying, it means more that there is a side to him he may not fully admit to even himself.
I am hurt, upset and I do not want to feel digust. I feel beaten and cheated. I cannot start to accept the fact that the man I thought was completely honest, is leading a life I am not even beginning to understand.
