I'll second that... You did have us pretty spooked! I know you are an intelligent person and wouldn't do anything stupid.. but at the same time, I know that depression can really mess with rational thinking. And that had me scared for your sake. It's a strange thing about these message boards.. we know so much about each other, yet know nothing. I was thinking to myself.. "How WOULD we know if something happened?" It's difficult to search the internet for information about someone who lives in a small town, in the south, in an unknown state, who is a professor, who is enormously tall . Just too vague.

But.. thank goodness you are ok, and seeing clearly about your situation. I found your letter very interesting.. I could have written it, to my own wife... word for word. Almost made me wonder if I copied it and sent it, how similar our responses would be.

Hang in there.. stay strong! there is a alot of work ahead, but hopefully, WHATEVER HAPPENS, you will find yourself in a happier place that gives you the rewards you deserve!