I have been talking to her on the phone a few times since coming to the workshop. Unfotunately, one time we were talking I was mentioning that I might be able to come home this weekend, and she said don't bother as she will be having to practice for a wedding she is playing in next wekend. I know it is stupid, but that really hurt. I was hoping to hear how much she missed me, how much she wanted to see me. Instead I got that she didn't really care if it was one week away or 3. I know inside that this is partly my doing. I have helped create the atmosphere that our M is in, in which she doesn't look forward to seeing me. She is probably scared of what silly thing I will do next, or what other bombshell I will drop. But it still hurts, a lot.
Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
