okay...another emotional trigger ( the email) leading to a downward spiral of negative thoughts...do you see the pattern? You are letting your thoughts run away from you. Try to find some steady ground...come here and post all you want. Take things hour to hour til you get through the worst. You will make it through...remember the triggers are everywhere, when you least expect it. I am sorry you are in so much pain...you can turn it around...and you do have so much going for you...we are rooting for you!
