I was wondering where you were hiding. And what's this "don't want to mope all over the board", that's what we do best If nothing else you can just vent. But I understand needing to "shut it" for a while too. Ok, so you're down on yourself. But you are also aware. That's better than living in denial. You know things need to be better so now you can make it happen. What's with the "mistakes and bad habits" you mentioned? Maybe if you are specific we can give you some ideas. I know. I know, implementing them is the Hard part. But that's where the personal growth comes in. If there is one thing I have noticed about a lot of the HD men on this board that are not getting any lovin, it is that many lack assertiveness. I know you are like that too Chrome. But like I said on HD's thread, assertiveness is linked to attraction. Keep working on yourself and stop worrying about her O's and stuff. That is her decision to make. Is she using that as an excuse? Who knows. My guess is yes because it's buying her 4 more months of "freedom." She is willing to "help" you as you stated so maybe you can do that to at least keep some EC going. Still stinks though, sorry.
