I do get weary sometimes of trying to be Mr. Positive all the time. I'm not saying I succeed very well, but that is such a fundamental shift in who I am that I sometimes get beaten down trying to be positive LOL. I have always been the skeptical guy who personalized everything. Not a good combination for intimacy. Now I'm wading through the pollution from 10 years of my own bad behavior.
And the Adonis thing, I still have many moments in which all this attractive stuff seems so surreal. I know I'm not someone that women drool over, but going from the elephant man to "hey, that fellow's not bad" is also a huge shift for me. I'm still a huge geek most of the time when I interact with women, so I'm sure I kill most attraction quickly anyway. LOL
Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
