I'm doing better since stopping snooping - well, better in most ways, but hit anxiety moments every now and then.
I did a movie tonight with a friend. It's funny how I try to stay "mysterious", primarily by not telling W many details other than "I'm going to a movie Thursday night" - not with who, not what movie, just that I'm going to a movie. Then, over time, she asks me all the details - who with, what movie, what time, am I eating dinner at home or out, etc etc. Is this a semi-good sign? She's plenty cool about asking - not all at once, and not extreme curiosity, just smooth questions slipped in here and there.
After I get done typing this, I'm going to fill out the paperwork to sign up for our office gym. Planning yet another movie night with another friend for next week or week after. Generally staying aloof, if that's the right word. It just feels a little odd, because right after d-day, I felt part of why the A happened was b/c I'd gotten so bogged down in my own things - but, that was rather different, as they were all at home and all just stuff on the computer. Now I'm getting out or keeping myself more occupied in some way off my a$$. I'm not so sure the "getting bogged down in my own things" was really a factor, so much as the constant neglect and lack of attention when she spoke of her interests. Also feels odd, because as my C said, there's this really large elephant in the room that nobody's talking about.
Since someone suggested keeping my sitch to one thread (until it gets locked), I moved to here.
