I read most of your sitch before posting. It helped quite a lot, particularly in realizing this may be a LONG and arduous journey, and I'm planning for that. As far as being together - I sometimes wonder if it's denial or just having burned through a lot of emotions very fast. The talk I had with my best friend right after finding out was 4+ hours and I think I ran the gamut of emotions rather quickly. It really helped me have my confrontation with W extremely calmly. He and I have talked about every day since, and it's helped me stay grounded. I've also been so incredibly aware of what is going on, I can't deny it and still consider myself sane. I can't really say why I seem all that together, except I'm almost always that way. There are definitely moments I sit in denial, or at least conscious and selective forgetfulness, but if anything I can't get my mind off it all and pain is something I feel 24/7 right now. :P
I just learned of DB and DR tonight. I am going by the bookstore tomorrow to see if I can find them, and if not ordering right away. (Posting another question on that topic.)
