I have been a constant reader of this messageboard but until now have I decided to actually become apart of. I too have been on an roller coaster executing 180 and also being dim at times. But throught it all I keep coming to the realization that I can not let my emotions strangle me. I stick to my guns of DBing and remind myself to continue to move past my feelings and choose love again and again.
Since you already suspected your disappointing news remember that place in your heart that keeps you choosing to stay. Your indifference tone concerning your W and your R is understandable but don't stay stuck. Contining to ask for support is why we are all here. Especially those like myself who do more listening (reading) than posting.
I am as my namesake suggest (willing) therefore I remind you as I remind myself that willingness provides the energy for DB so don't hang your head and keep at it. Remember keep doing what works. You've been at this for a while and this may be the breakthrough you awaited.
