Well two weekends ago we went of a mini-vacation together; had a great time and I wasn't just reading between the lines. He SAID he had a great time. He was very affectionate and that attitude even carried over after we got home.
At the beginning of this week I went through a 'doubt/jealous' dip. (Couple of weeks back H revealed to me that earlier in year; when he was moving in/moving out 3X; he had been 'talking/communicating' with a OW that I had no idea about. I knew about another OW that had been calling him; but this OW was a whole new one!) So he tells me about her; a few details; says he stopped talking to her in January (when she expressed more interest in him than wanting to be 'friends') BUT he won't tell me her name! Which makes me think that I know her. (H said she was M to a co-worker & she worked at HQ but doesn't anymore)
Apparently, this has really bothered me as I'm even having bad dreams about who it could be!
Though I fight it, I know that the fact that he won't tell me her name has me flopping around in a puddle of suspicion and jealousy.
But then I tell myself that 'hey... he didn't have to tell me at all; I would have never known' and 'hey, idiot, if he were STILL communicating with her, he wouldn't have told you in the first place!"
So I had a couple of days where I'd see him talking to some woman at the gym or he'd get a call and I was 'who was that?' H's standard answer, 'don't know her name." (not on the calls, just at the gym) Finally I told him (mistake I'm sure) "Sorry, I just get jealous." and he says 'you should be jealous; women love me. Boosts my ego.' What an ASS! Me and him!
And since he said that; I shut up about it. But the last two days he's gone into his 'aloof' mode. Been making snide little picky comments etc. A part of me wants to demand "WTF does THAT mean?"
Except I've gotten a handle on myself again. He was delayed at work last night and when he got home I was all smiles and 'how did the thing go?' And any little digging comments went whishing over my blonde little head!
I just get soooo tired of this dance. Waltzing around and around to some crappy music...
Think I'm doing any good here? Backing off is the right thing to do I hope?
I'm curious though; do you think I should demand that he tell me who this OW was?
