He was falling asleep on the couch (still on England time) and when the show "we" were watching ended, we headed down to the bedrooms. In the guest bedroom, I hugged him and said sleep well, and he said, "Aren't you going to stay in here with me?" And I said "yes of course, if you wish; let me go put on my PJs." So I shut down the house and came to his bed, and he rolled over so he could hold my hand (already most of the way asleep)...
He had a hard night -- and so did I... My back is killing me from 20+ hours on the couch watchin' movies; and some nights his prostate lets him sleep through, and some nights not! But if I rolled away, he'd move over to me, and vice versa...
I am ... disciplining my thoughts... to expect a sea-change in his attitudes, and to continue my detachment and GAL (off to the Y in 2 hours!)... I am NOT believing what he says, (well, completely: let's say I am not basing any decisions or choices on his words!!)
I will say I am dreading her contacting him again and disrupting his ... mental withdrawal from her, if such it actually is... But maybe she won't -- and I can't control it anyway, and it may all be part of his/their plan to convince me they're broken up and, and, and... no point in thinking about it -- just do my OWN thing(s) and keep looking for 180s and PMA!
NW
My thread is under the Infidelity/Adultery section and is called Mea Maxima Culpa -- but I can't get the link to work.
