Thanks Ellie, You join the chorus of my mom and friend (on my "support list") rolling their eyes and pointing out how idiotic I am being... You're right, they're right... {sigh} I will do so...
It's HARD! I just keep thinking I can *reach* her! (Or HIM!) They "ought" to consider me, remember me, not be doing this to me...
He is not contacting me at all; although he answers my questions when I am able to reach him (he finally got his email working) -- I'm in such withdrawal (this is only the third time we've been apart in NINE years!) I had not realized that ALL my social contact (other than internet connections with the friends I left behind, across the continent, when I moved here and married him -- and them not much contact, youknow?) has been with him... Rattling around this empty empty house, trying to think who I could call to talk with -- just to hear a human voice -- makes me realize how isolated I've become...
(I THOUGHT!) we were so happy and content being "joined at the hip" and spending all our time together... Clearly it was a mistake to rely on him and his presence to fill my companionship needs -- and yet he HAS until now...
I have been SO blind! (And I'm waking up at 4:30 every night and I don't know why...)
My thread is under the Infidelity/Adultery section and is called Mea Maxima Culpa -- but I can't get the link to work.
