WHY DOES HE DO THIS TO ME?!?!?! I've been crying my eyes out for the last ten minutes at his blithe and blind, totally careless cutting my heart out!
He just called me from the airport to let me know he *misses* me; that he feels really odd and "off" being there without me. Told me about his drive down, where he parked, the sandwich he bought for lunch, (how weird the Chik-Fil-A kiosk is at the international terminal), what the terminal looked like, and so on.
I suppose he thinks it's a positive thing, a kind thing to help me feel better -- for weeks, he's been telling me how sorry he is that I am so sad, and how he is trying to not hurt me -- and then he lies and lies and lies, or flies off to her...
And yes, I suppose that it actually IS a positive thing -- he is missing me; he is aware that he's not got me next to him, as I have always been for nine years... But oh GOD IT HURTS SO BAD!!! He's flying off to his mistress leaving me here alone; and then he' s telling me how much he misses me!
I managed to be light and sweet and teased him a bit; told him I was vaccuuming (another 180!) and he said not to go outside cause the sun is brutal today...
He's gonna call me again when they start boarding the plane... So, I have about an hour to stop crying, to let my voice return to normal so he can't tell... To figure out, yet again, how to keep my composure and be supportive when all I want to do is scream at him to come HOME and quit being such a complete fool!
My thread is under the Infidelity/Adultery section and is called Mea Maxima Culpa -- but I can't get the link to work.
