Quote: I am missing him deeper than I have yet. The cool reception in his shop, and no phone calls, no contact from him, it's excruciating. I can't believe he would rather work and not see me, that that is better than spending time with me. How did I become so awful to him?
PL, you know that the answer is the guilt he feels when he's around you. It is an enormous weight on him all the time. You can try to ease that burden for him, but sometimes that just makes it heavier. Relax ... and make sure your D understands that a divorce won't take away the pain, because it won't.
The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth." (Psalm 145:18)