Positively new thread - how do you deal with this?

[PositivelyListening]

Hi JayHawk & Doug, I am so glad you were there. I was just feeling like I was having a hard time controlling myself, and so wanted to call H and tell him what I really think of him right now, that I don't want to talk to him or see him anymore, etc. etc. Having a pretty decent cry fest here. It's amazing what a little "I understand" can do. I will not over do it with the wine or the reactivity. I am pretty good company, even for myself. You guys are great. Thank you for being there. If I get weird uncontrollable urges again, I will check back here before proceeding