It has been a long too days. I am discouraged and want it to end, but keep reminding myself that usually every time we have gotten closer, it was followed by H pulling back. I must be patient. I am not sure why, but this particular event of selling D's house makes me feel like our R is now really completely over. I am grieving again. H is making statements about all you need in life is a suitcase and even D thinks he is trying hard to convince himself that running away to the next thing is best. I shall do my best to not let his MLC downs get to me. He also stated he sees no hope for the world and the future. So sad. H is very emotionally removed. I will do my best to be patient. I feel angry and sad myself. It is getting to me, all of it. The whole past 5 months. Right now I just want to go home. I will be there tonight. Meanwhile, I can hope that today will be better. I will make sure to take one last swim in D's house swimming pool and take some pictures.
PositivelyListening ************************************** When one door of happiness closes, another one opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us. - Helen Keller
