Bonnie...Keep reading and you will soon figure out that the first thing that you need to do is make yourself whole again. You can not make him do anything. You are both obviously hurt right now, but you have a choice to make on how you are going to heal yourself. Until then, you will not be happy. Your number one priority HAS to be you and your child. Remember, your son did not be asked to be put in the middle of this. You are grown ups and you have the ability to make decisions for yourselves. Is it your goal to just get him back, or do you want to rebuild your relationship with him. Are you willing to do the work necessary? Until you can come to terms with yourself, the relationship will never work. NO RELATIONSHIP WILL EVER WORK FOR THAT MATTER.