Now I must put that fully into practice and believe in us again. There are still a few things that made me angry when I read them*********************** " A friend who accepted my choice (to be with her) w/o over analyzing or demanding that I repeatedly explain my choice or relive my decision process. A friend who was concerned with how I felt and what I wanted but never asked any questions. After all the years of disapproval, the most wounding actions to me are questions with thinly disguised motivation. *************************** That really gets to me....It makes me angry..."accept" his choice to be with her....wow, I don't know how the heck I'm supposed to do that one....accept-maybe I think I've gotten to 'dealing with it', but acceptance is a far cry from aggreeing...I will never agree with that decision. I need to know what let him to that decision-so we will not make those same mistakes. And I'd like to think (niavety??) that our marriage had not been "years of disapproval". I thought we had it all....(more niavety??).
I know I have not truely let go of all my anger and hurt.
Again, I have to say wow. That courtryboy sure ain't no bumpkin. I'm printing it out and to read...and read...and read....If he gets the chance to read this-I would really like to thank him.
Also gonna go back to Barnes and Noble this weekend and pick up a few more books.
You guys are the best-TA!
L-smiling and feeling true PMA as she sits in the hundred acre wood watching Christopher Robin play, and gets stuck in the tree with Pooh to get the honey!
