Me2, There are two sides to the forgiveness is a gift you give yourself thing.
1st, you gotta forgive yourself for your past. If you can't do that, you will never be able to forgive another.
2nd, by forgiving H, you are releiving the burdens that come with harboring ill feelings. I don't know what it will take for you to get to this point. For me, I had to stand on the precipice and realize I was about to lose everything I cared about. I had to pass thru my own mini MLC.
