I am also facing an anniversary-it will be 8 years on the 6th of March. Have not done any shopping. Don't think I will.(?) A card of course, but I got/made something sentimental on V-day and I'm not sure how well it was received, and I felt silly when he looked at it and wondered what the hell it was.
I am dreading my anniversary. I really just don't want to celebrate it at all. I still feel really uncomfortable wearing my rings-but H asked me to put them back on so I did. Maybe that's too much a "down" and "bad" attitude to take towards it. But like I said-I really don't feel married-not like I did before. I feel ashamed almost when I think about they way I used to feel, and how intense I was about it. Every time I see one of those reminders of a happy loving marriage I can't help but think (to myself of course) 'yeah right, give him X years-he'll be cheating'. Much resentment still, huh.
I have told H that at some point in the future I'd like to renew our vows-but I don't want to have anything to do with setting it up(initially)-he knows how I feel, if it's as important to him then he will make the first move at doing it. Sad thing here is that having said that-it will probably never happen if left up to him.
