You are right. You are obsessing. ******************************************** I do not trust him, yet I want him to tell me the whole truth...BUT what do I believe, and when do I feel he's told me everything? How do I get myself out of this vicious circle? ********************************************* You have not let go of the bad stuff yet, ie. resentment, suspicion, anger. It's still in you cooking. You need to let go of this crap on your own. No one can do it for you.
If the Webmaster said the account was 6 months without use, it is 6 months without use. Why do you think there is a conspiracy? Snooping yields circumstantial evidence that fuels more snooping.
Trust him? I would'nt. But I would try to give H the benefit of the doubt until something slaps you in the face. If he is still involved with OW, something will give a sign eventually.
Let go of the insecurity Me2. It will eat you up and destroy any hope for reconcilliation.
