Quote: Do you sense he feels like it (sex) is never going to happen and he thinks he has to ramp-up his efforts in a negative, 'desperation' way for you to agree to sex or do you think it is mostly a 'power play' like he is going to 'win at all costs'?
I do think it comes from desperation Lou, he thinks that it is the only way that I will pay attention to the matter. What he does not realise is that every time I see a patched hole in the wall or a broken object it is a reminder of his anger. It makes it that much harder to think loving thoughts.
I bought The SSM and Passionate Marriage. I have read both more than once. H has not even gotten halfway through SSM. Makes me wonder about how much he really wants to change things. Personally I am sick of the same old arguments and the vicious circle that ensues, I have often come close to just packing it in. It pisses me off that I carry all the blame for the way things are and that H is trying to get back his past instead of working out a better future.
Quote: I have to look up that big hydro-electric dam project in your country again. I read about it about a year ago. It took me a couple of nights, Googeling it.
You mean the Snowy Mountains Hydro Scheme? My Grandfather worked on that one when it was being developed.
Anyway, where did CeMar go?
It can't come quickly enough
And now you've spent your life
Waiting for this moment
And when you finally saw it come
It passed you by and left you so defeated.
Scissor Sisters - 'It Can't Come Quickly Enough'
