Hello everyone! Haven't been around for a while but life still goes on and certain things tend to resurface and come back to hit you on a head like a boomerang. H and I are back in counseling - seems like one problem gets resolved but new ones surface. It also seems that I'm the one with the problems - still and even though H admits to having "issues" so far he hasn't volunteered to reveal them and address them. THE LD vs HD problem still hunts me it seems. The physical problems (lubrication, frequent UTI's, at times painful intercourse) as well as the emotional ones (not being as much of the initiator as the H would like, getting over the H's A - still seeing the occasional flashbacks in front of my eyes, not being accustomed to expressing the desire/lust/love in the same fashion) still drag me down and I must say - I AM TIRED!!!!!!!!!!! I'm tired of my H viewing the problems I admit that I have as excuses. I must add that aside from MC I'm also attending private C sessions to work on my shortcomings and the C (same one for both occasions) is seeing great results and progress but my H keeps going back and forth between "I see it" and "I don't see it" depending on his level of satisfaction.
Ok...sort of rambling here but the reason behind me being on this forum is simple - I'm still working on my M and I am planning to use all resources available to make it work. And still - I'm doing it as much for myself as I am for my H.
