Thanks GH; truth be told I sat down next to her on the floor (next tot the bed), asked her what she was sad about, specifically, if she wanted to talk about it. She explained that there was nothing to talk about, she was just sad and wanted to be with her best friend right now.
Then I told her if she wanted to talk about it that I was here for her, that she knew where I was. It's so hard to see her hurting, to know I caused it, and to see her drive away, oh
What's your source of strength during these times GH; it takes everything I have inside me to get through it, to not take in my arms and tell her "it'll be OK, hon', I'm here for you. I Love you and I'll do whatever you want to make you feel better."
God, I can't believe I let things get this far, that I hurt so much the one person, the one woman that matters the most.
She's not like most women I've met; she's so resilient, so strong, she can handle things as I've never seen before. I'm amazed she's still here, I don't understand why she hasn't already filed given the way she feels/is feeling. I suspect that it's the children.
(But that is just another source of stress, besides our youngest, i.e., we just got full custody of our older kiddles, from my previous marriage, you dig, much court stuff recently, she certainly knows about the Fam. Law process, she's been my skilled paralegal throughout all of it).
I'm going to put them to bed and have a few beer, maybe read the Langs. of Love book (it's difficult because I can't really implement any of the information I learn in this book, not really the way I want to).
