Brian My H attitude and behavior today was silence. Got home from work around 5pm. (He has an hour drive home form work) I only got him to tell me that his day at work was boring. That was about it. He's really good at giving one the silence treatment. He did this last year when I went and had a tattoo put on my lower back. He couldn't understand why I would want to do this. I explained to him that his was my way of freedom and release from all the pain I had gone through from years past. (The EA he had) The tattoo is of a butterfly. He just couln't understand and I told him I didn't expect him to but I was going to do this for me. He said go ahead and I did. Only to come home to him not speaking to me. Only when needed to and no sex for 6 weeks. This no sex for 6 weeks came straight out of his mouth. You see when he gets mad that is something he knows he can hold from me. This tears me up inside deeply. I'd say my H is attractive, to me he is. I'll tell him he's handsome and he just shrugs his shoulders. He's aging well. Does have a few back problems from past hard labor work, but he seems to do fine. I have asked him if his back is the problem and he has let me know that here are times when it has been a factor. No weight gain, no loss of hair (yet). My H LOVES his car. He has a G35 Infinty. He works on it to make it better, faster, you name it. If he could make it fly he would. My joke to him when he tells me he's going to be working on hs car, I'll say "You mean your going to be making love to your car." No response just a look with the eyebows going up. I will admit I do get jealous over his car. He knows how I feel. Just looks at me like I'm crazy. He's a great father to our kids. Does a good job with my D15. I have a hard time with her, she has a boyfriend and spends why to much time with him. Her grades had slipped and when I try and talk to her, all she hears is balbalbla, from me. But when Daddy tells her that she needs to get her act togther she does. S10 has ADHA and can be a hand full but is a good kid. D7 lover her Daddy, will hang out with him for hours. I'd say my H is passive. He used to be a go getter type of guy but lately, I just don't know. Maybe somewhere along the way he has lost himself and just doesn't know what to do. I know he doesn't do much, just go to work and work on his car. I take care of not just in house and family, but I also do all the yard work too. My friend's H always tell me "Next time you need your lawn mowed call me I'll do it". But of course I don't call. As to when he see's me naked he will give me a smile. But this is only when it is safe, meaning he knows there is no time for us to act on the moment. At night when getting ready for bed he will not pay any attention. avoiding the moment. We do go out but sometimes.It feels like we are strangers. Not much to talk about. I guess I haven't taken the time asked him about his dreams. This I will do tonight. And let you know what happens.
