Brian and OG thanks for your response. As I read Brian's response I was wondering if maybe he might be feeling hurt or guilty about having the EA. I will say, I have asked him in the past what was it about her that made him attacted to her. Maybe there is somthing he would want me to do or change. He says no. He loves me and wants me the way I am. I know this is crazy thinking but an EA can really destroy you in how you see yourself. I try not to bring up the EA in our discussions but it has happened. I have been direct, to the point. Told him what I want. I am not shy in this department, never have been. Sometime I think my directness embarrasses him. I don't know why he used to be the same way. I mean I have been with this man for 20 yrs. ML to him on our first date. Something I have never told anyone by the way. Waited 3 yrs to get married to make sure we had our careers first.
We where at the gas sation the other day and my H went in to pay and when he came out I was talking to some guy. He didn't see my H was with me and started talking to me about gas prices and I mentioned my H and he said, "O I was going to ask you for your phone number. Nice talking to you." My H came out and asked what he had said and I told him. all he said ways "good for you." What was that? I asked him what he meant and he said nothing. No jealously. Later I talked to him about and he said he's used to men looking. He's lucky to have me.
He gives me mixed signals too. If he happens to be off during the week, which is great, he will chase me around the house (kids are in school) but will have no desire to ML. Say's lets wait until tonight. But night comes and nothing happens. I just don't get it. Well to much rambling going on.
