There is so much more that I would love to say, but like I said I'm not the kind of person to reach for help, everyone comes to me for help. Now it's my turn.
This group likes questions and details, so fire away.

P.S. I haven't told my 2 best friends about my problems because they have currently stopped talking to me because they both are having PA's and they know how much I do not approve.

No disapprovals from most of the folks here. Feel free to completely open up.

I am the higher drive man in SSM so my opinions as clouded by what I want to happen in my R.

The one thing I will say is start doing things that you like to do that do not include your H.

Lou