I know how you feel. My h can home after being gone(physically for 5 months, emotionally longer). It is really difficult, because I would like things to be back how they were when we were fine, and they are not. I guess when he told me he wanted to come back i figured that he was coming back lock, stock and barrell.... meaning that everything would be like or close to how it was before. this is where i made my mistake. it is not like it was before, it's not bad, but it is not how i pictured it would be. i wanted the romance, the hugs, kisses, ect. h was still not ready for that. that is what made it difficult for me. i guess in all my rambling here, what i am trying to say is, it is not unreasonable for us to expect things to be how they were. but the reality is that it wont be. i have found that alot has changed, i have changed. so i need to change my expectations too. we are back to time, it will take time to be back to the good times. i guess we just need to focus on what is happening now and take the little steps and don't expect more. things will happen slowly, i remember reading here on the board, the let go and let GOD..... how true,,,, i just need to keep reminding myself of that. just don't get discouraged.... keep your faith, and i am sorry if i rambled........ lh
