I'll repeat something, just to make sure it came through:
You MUST do as GH says and stop all begging, crying, pleading and unpleasant behavior NOW.
Then get the Divorce Remedy book, hide it, and read, read, read.
Then come back here for support. It is not what seems natural, but do it anyway.....the interactions and conversations you have now are more important than the ones that come later - these are the ones that decisions will be based on.
