thanks to the both of you for your responses. kent i know what you say is true, that i should still find the time for myself.
jamie,
you hit it right on the head for me. it is hard to put into words what is really bothering me. i am worried that this is just temporary. that h will leave again, that he is having contact with the ow, ect. i do not voice my worries to h, i keep them to myself. as far as questions, i usually do not ask h unless he brings up something first. the funny thing is he still thinks that i also had an affair within this time. i was honest with him and told him what happened, which was nothing. i don't understand how he could think that i did, when i don't think it was right when he had one.... go figure.
jamie, i am glad things are working out ok for you and all is going along. you give me hope and inspiration. time, i am back to time........
