Oh Mojo I can't go down that road, the what if's. It's hard enough dealing with all of this, let alone always wondering what would have happened if we didn't reconcile. Would I have found that ideal guy? Who knows. No one is ideal. But it does frustrate me that H and I are still having to deal with what I think really boils down to very different personality types, at least related to our Need for passion. I feel like I am a passioanate person and he...just isn't. I love him, find him one of the most interesting people I know, best friend and all, but passion wise we just don't click, may never click. The only way this will work is if I lower my standards.
It's as simple/impossible as that.