There is nothing surprising or light in that at all. That is biology talking. There is a reason that in many cultures throughout history concubines were acceptable. Of course, you are talking about the other way, but it is the same thing. Biology drives us to preserve our genetic code. The easiest way to do that is mate with as many others as possible to ensure that at least one combination will thrive. Monogamy is exceedingly rare in the animal world for a reason. And humans are animals, just with a brain more capable of creating pathways and connections than any other.
Well, that was a very intellectual, Dr. Chrome response , and while I certainly agree with you, my interest/fantasy in actually doing that is much more emotional for me than due to a biological sexual drive. I have been coming to grips with never having that "in love" feeling again...ever...in my whole life. And I am going back and forth in my head with why this is such an issue for me. I tell myself I do not need to be "in love" yet still the stupid romantic in me really wishes I could just feel it again.
And I can tell myself I am "in love" with my H and I do love him very much. But you know what I'm talking about Chrome. Like the EA. It's just a different feeling. An amazing feeling that you only share with a few people in life, you know?
Ugh. I don't know why I'm even discussing this since it's not going to be helpful to my M. But sometimes....I just wish I could have my cake and eat it too.