Welcome to the board as a poster.You are demonstrating maturity and responsiblity by returning to your H and son.They certainly deserve it and you do,too!
Posting on this board and reading the books you mentioned are a great start in healing your marriage.You will get much wise advice from your friends on this board. Take heed!
However,PJ,I recommend psychotherapy, w a solution based therapist,to help you move ahead in a positive direction.I suspect you are depressed as the need for "hyper stimulation" is often a symptom of depression and tied in to MlC issues,as well.I invite you to read Peter Kramer's book "Should You Leave" which addresses this in a capitivating manner.
You mention that your son is from a "previous relationship".Is there a pattern in your behavior?What you have been doing is self destructive and self defeating.Has it happened before?
PJ,there are many high energy/high maintenance women who fill their needs in positive ways.Build your self esteem through self development,not a sexual realtionship with a married man.
I suggest that you read Michele's responses to Joanne,on this forum for an example of how to identify and express your needs in a productive way and enhance your relationship with your H.(who is,BTW, quite a loving and forgiving man under the circumstances).
I look forward to reading your posts!
Reaching out to you in friendship and support....Jenny
[This message has been edited by 17baker445 (edited 09-18-2000).]
