Hi all - how's everyone's marriage doing?

My H and I went to counseling last night and our counselor kept having to remind us (me especially) to stay in "the now"!! I keep going on the past because my husband doesn't seem to be changing much. She said I can't keep hoping he'll change. She's right but I can't do much for myself right now because I have two young children. He's a firefighter and he's at work a lot.

If I were to "do things for myself", who would do for the kids? He sure as h*ll isn't home a lot!

What can I do to let go of the past? Of the guilt? Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks for letting me unload.

Love - akf