Your dealing with a lot of feelings right now. And yes, after 14yrs, 5mo is not enough time to give in. not even if the M has been on the rocks. If you want to quit, none of us can stop you. But there is a reason you are posting on a divorce busting board. And, all of us care about eachother and what we are going through.
You want to be in control. Don't say or do anything. It puts the most cards in your hand, more than any speech or action.
Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding