Here is my sitch. All advice welcome

[Hanging__On]

I know that I am about to fall from the rope I am haning onto. I just can't stand to stay in limbo any longer. I found out about the affair 5 months ago. I have done everything she has asked. I have given her space, went to counseling, even filled out divorce papers together at one point(although we never filed them). I can no longer sit back and act as if nothing is going even though I know better. I am tired of her diciding for me this is a choice I am making on my own. I am tired of being controlled.