Here is my sitch. All advice welcome

[Hanging__On]

Wow. That is so true Doug. I think the line has finally been crossed. I am no longer holding myself to be better standard than my W because I know that mistakes can be made. We are all human and therefor not perfect. I am no longer a better person than anyone. I can't even stand up to my own morals that I beleived I had. I have screwed up beyond repair. After serveral weeks of not talking about the R, I told her in a letter how I really felt about our marraige and that I don't think we can ever get through the pain and suffering we have both endured during our time together. We are supposed to get together at some point today to discuss this change of events. I realize now that people don't have to settle and try to just exist. Life should be fun and exciting. Why fight for a marraige that neither one of us want.I still love my W will all my heart but I don't think either one of us will be happy again with our marraige. I am giving up on us. I can't see us ever growing old together anymore.