Here is my sitch. All advice welcome

[Hanging__On]

Question? Do you ever think that it is even possible for my W and reconcile? From reading DR I had some thoughts. My wife told me that it was her that was the problem and no me. Which is just what Michelle says in the infedelity chapter about needing an ego boost. She has told her parents that she is really trying to work on the marraige yet she is not doing anything but ignoring me. It is real obviouse that she is not doing a darn thing. My W persued the OM until he gave into her. I know in my heart she is still seeing this guy even though she says she has cut it off with him. I beleive that she is still sneeking around because her parents both say they don't want anything to do with this other guy. They told she better not have him at her new place becuase her Dad won't let her stay there anymore.

I just question myself on why I would put up this crap. I know the main reason is my kids. If I didn't have kids I would not be putting myself through this. I just want my children to grow up with both parents. I beleive it is so important for them. Now don't get me wrong I love my W beyond beleif, but the hell she has put on this family is incredible.

I took the kids to her place on the way to work and I tried playing it pretty cool. She seemed a little down this morning. I think she had the OM over last night because she was acting very strange when she called to talk to kids before bedtime.

If you hadn't noticed I am just rambling this morning but these are some of the things I think about. It is extremely hard to understand when I walk through the house and see so much of my life missing. I don't think she took one picture of me and her to the place. I know she took the photo albums but she left all the big pictures of the kids on walls. Some of the stuff she took makes no sense and some of the stuff she left makes no sense. For crying out loud she left the stuff to do fake fingernails. Now what would I want with that? Anyway my mind is racing today so I sure I will post quit a bit.