Here is my sitch. All advice welcome

[Hanging__On]

Well, I made it through the weekend. I had some up and downs and today has been the hardest day of my life. I walked through the front dorr of the house with my D5 and D2 and the house seemed empty. She actually moved. I guess I new she was going to but actually seeing it with my own eyes was very hard.

She left me everything we talked about so I don't have any room to complain. Pictures off the walls and furniture gone just seems more that I can bear. I gave the girls a bath before I called the W and they were happy that I got them new beds for their rooms.

As I sit here and type, I am sick to stomach and I feel empty.

Anyway the W came and picked up the girls for our first exchange of many I predict. She was very friendly and showed some sadness as she came in the house. I could hardly contain myself as I cried some. Then we both cried and gave each other a hug. I just feel devestated that our once solid rock marraige has turned to such a mess. I loved this woman my whole adult life. I am sure you DB's will get tired of me posting now that I have so much time on my hands but I am looking for some serious guidance. The pain is unbelivable.

Sorry I am jumping around so much I just can't seem to concentrate on one topic.

She asked me to go to dineer tonight and I accepted. Mainly because I want to be with the girls, but I have missed her tremendsely the last 5 days. I am not sure if I am supposed to go or not so right now I am going. Thanks for letting me rant a bit. I am just Hanging_On by a thread.