Quote: Since I am headed to the woods to camping for the next 5 days I think she is feeling pretty bad about not being a part of the tradition we have. I believe she will be up to no good while I am gone so that is going to be on my mind the whole time. I just pray that the Lord will get us through this horrific experience, and give me the strength to accept the things I cannot change.
Ah, the LBS prayer, lol. Anyway, YOU DON'T KNOW what she's going to be "up" to when you are gone so stop thinking you do, or if you MUST be consumed by these thoughts, allow yourself to think too that she MAY be racked with guilt the whole time and be totally unable to enjoy being "up to no good". OR she may just take some time to herself, something she may be in need of even though you may think she's had a bunch of that lately, and will take the time to really mull things over. The fact is, and especially since you are now seeing signs that she is softening up a bit (Last night she said ILY on her own. This morning she gave me a hug and a kiss before she left the house for work. She started to cry as she left the house.) you don't know what this time will bring out in her. It COULD give her time to move out and have the time of her life OR it COULD give her the time and space she really needs to sort some things out. YOU JUST DON'T KNOW so getting all worked up, or hyped up over the good/bad possibilities is pointless. Have neither fear nor hope. As the prayer says, ACCEPT that which you cannot change and by accepting it, that means have a GREAT time with your kids and friends and let yourself be absorbed into the moments that you will share with them and release yourself from the hold of your sitch.
Remember, you will only spend the next 5 days thinking about it if YOU choose to. It's all up to you whether you want to choose to be happy(ish) or miserable. Choose the happiness, at least for a few days.
