GG and Cookie, It is so good hearing from you. How strange...I haven't checked in in a long time and just happened to stop by today and you had both left messages. Life is good, but I too have moments of pain and hurt that I deal with internally. I may cry for a while and then start all over again. It's funny now, that even though I love my H and I know he loves me, I seem to have some kind of even fleeting thought of his affair daily. I, unlike you Cookie, never asked for any details. It was very difficult for me to deal with his emotional ties to the OW, the sexual ones would have sent me over the edge. I still don't know a name or face, and won't ever know. It is strange how something like an affair changes a person and a marriage, but I think my H and I now are clearer than ever about how we feel about each other and our union. I'd like to tell you a cute story, if you have time. We went on a family vacation in August. The boys, my H and I were out for dinner on our anniversary. I am somewhat of a slob when it comes to eating..the proverbial you can dress her up but can't take her out kind of woman. Well, when we were laughing and having a great time, I got sauce from my lasagna all over my face...you know up the nose etc. I said," I'll bet looking at me now you can't remember why you ever married me." He said,"I know exactly why I married you and why I would marry you all over again today." So now I have sauce up my nose and tears running down my face. It seems like we have come so far since a year ago. We have resolved so much and our future looks bright. But memories are there forever. Maybe that is God's way of remindig us what is important. I often wonder what memories he has, but don't ask. I guess if he wanted me to know, he'd tell me. But then I don't think he ever wants to hurt me like he did before. So, good luck to you both. It is so nice that so many people still care and that so many of us are on the road to recovery. Love to all, Karen
