And she is really trying to drive home the point that W QUIT. She walked away from her marriage and more importantly her KIDS. She didn't want to work on it, she didn't want to communicate her needs, etcetcetc.
That by continually BLAMING me she is still acting childish. She doesn't want to take responsibility for her (in)actions and it's easier to be mad at me. Not very mature.
C wants to know why I'd want her back. I said not like she is, I hold out hope that she will resolve her issues and choose to try again, that we can be a family again. I vacillate between not wanting anything to do w/ her (pride) and wanting to restore my marriage and be the kind of husband I know I can be for her (humility), BUT I don't really know that anything will ever be enough for her.
Okay, I know this sounds like I'm still angry at her. I'm not. I KNOW I can do absolutely nothing to fix this. So, I try to be the best darn single Dad I can be, I try to be patient and understanding w/ the kids even though we all know what 15y.o. girls are like!! DRAMA. QUEEN.
And here is an excerpt from an email a mutual friend of ours sent me a bit ago..
Quote: I don't know why these things happen to us. We are all just struggling with life and love. You must mourn this, (D), and start to move on. Whatever you had with (W) is in the past, and not likely to return, from what I can see. She is not looking back.
Well that sums up how I see things. I would like to think there is some hope she will change, not likely from the general perception.
I was contemplating emailing W on Fri and telling her now that she's D'd would she please return her rings and anniv. band... but I just don't care anymore. She has made it clear how she feels about me and our M, so why would I want them around as a reminder?
On the positive side, I'm SLEEPING most of the night all the time now! YEAH. And she's pretty much avoiding all contact w/ me these days; major stress reduction!
I'm thinking that she's got at least 6-8 months of being D'vd before she'll even THINK of coming around. Any comments? Anyone want to lay odds?
Hey, I should start a pool on
A) Whether or not she'll ever want to try again... B) When she'll make a move towards that!
