{{{{{{{{{{{{Kansha}}}}}}}}}}}} Your post on my thread has me really worried about you. I know I am stressing, but not too far into the black pit---but you sound like you are on your way down. When do you start counseling? Are you going to have an individual counselor too or individual sessions with the same marriage counselor (Carey seems to be doing it that way-- and I think that might be a good idea for my H and I---but first I have to get him to stay commited to going)? You are a wonderful and strong lady who is going through hell for the second time and you have my upmost respect!!!!! Do keep posting here! Vent! Cry! Then do something for you. If you need the antidepressants for that boost, do it. Keep hanging in there... we are all there beside you. Take care! S