Well I've been trying to get myself up to speed since I've been back. H was abusively critical and ragging on me about several things as soon as we hit home. I was really ill so I had a hard time shifting from a connection with H(albeit tenuous and strained but somehow cozy)to raving crazy man. I finally figured out he was projecting. So I can kinda see the humor in his accusations. Then yesterday His attitude just shifted. We were making a major purchase which H accused me of railroading him. I wasn't. But then H said yesterday, "You know, if you really want this then you should have it." I couldn't believe it. He was so kind and lovingly indulgent in those few words. I can't remember when the last time was that he was like that.
He stayed home for 2 nights ( Didn't pay any attention to me but at least I know he wasn't with OW). But no such luck tonight. He's out who knows where and with who knows whom. I started to feel crazy but then I just let it go. (Wow, I did it too) H did say (When we were away) he would now go to counsiling with me. So maybe I'm piecing and maybe I'm getting ready for the Big D. Who knows. I HATE THIS LIVING IN LIMBO!!!!! I don't know how to get him to come back to my room.( We are in the same house in seperate rooms.) Any Ideas? kansha
