Ok...it's tough for me to stay away from my friends here, I admit it LOL.
I will say though that I have found cutting back on my posting here has helped (as fond as I am of all of you). Ok I'm going to give a bit of an update....that may suprise some of you. As some of you may have read my H is having some health problems...in fact he's going to the Dr. today to find out if he has a degenerative disease in his spine...please keep good thoughts for him today. I just looked on my calendar and realized that it's now been 7 weeks since we last ML....approx 5 weeks since our last attempt which I put a stop to.
Now, yes...I will say that it's bothering me some (but really just some, not really wearing on me). I've figured out though why it's not bothering me nearly as much as it used to.....WE, as a couple, HAVE CHANGED. The past 3-4 days I've been sort of really paying attention to how we interact....and honestly, it's so much different now than it was pre Dday with him.
In the past....there would have been very little joking around with each other (my H is too serious much of the time). This weekend I noticed that we kept getting into these little mock tiffs....where we were just joking around about something we were doing; it was a lot of fun. I didn't realize it at the time but it's something that I never felt comfortable doing with him in the past....and it's something he just wouldn't have done in the past either. We had a FUN weekend, even though we didn't really do anything....it's the EC at work.
Another change I've noticed is he's now calling me things like "sweetheart" on a regular basis. Calling me during the day just to say "I was thinking about you.".....AND, AND, AND....telling people (with me in earshot) how happy he is and that he may not be rich monetarily speaking, but he's the richest man in the world because he has Ian and I in his life. I literally teared up when I heard him say that to his mom on the phone. He said the same thing again to his best friend the other day, but didn't know I overheard it then.
In addition, my H is becoming more physically affectionate towards me too. True, we've been in a sexual dryspell....but his actions are different now. Even though we haven't ML in quite some time....he's still afffectionate physically with me. I've hesitated to do anything sexual because honestly....I don't know how he feels physically. I know his back bothers him...that's pretty much a given right now....but I don't know how he feels due to this freakin kidney stone. So...if nothing else I've been holding back to wait and see if he can pass that sucker (I'm beginning to think it's just attached itself to him permanently LOL).
I guess I just wanted to post this to let those HD people out there know that the EC really makes a HUGE difference. We aren't burning up the sheets currently.....but I'm so much happier with my H than I've been in quite some time regardless.
