Thank you Jamie, for the pat on the back and for taking the time and thought to respond. I am trying to take control of my life and concentrate on my strengths. I think this whole mess made me feel like I must be a failure, like you said, when we're down we only look at our weaknesses. I know I have a long way to go before I'm completely back on my feet, but at least my goal in now to regain myself and my self-worth as opposed to just getting my H back. Thanks again for the good advice, I know that it worked for you so that's very good motivation for me.