Hello Everyone!
It is wonderful to read all of your posts. I am especially grateful to those of you who kept us in your prayers during this crisis filled period with my son. We have managed to provide him with the therapy and support he requires to deal with his ADD and impulsivity.It will be a continuing effort,but things are looking brighter than they have in a long time.
Following summer school and a wilderness trek,our son is doing well and his school is going to allow him to return this fall.He will be on probation, which is stressful for all of us, and he will have to prove himself.One false move and we will be back where we started.
Unfortunately,my relationship with my H has slipped during these past few months. At times I have found myself just not having the energy to meet all of his needs, as well as those of our two children.
Like many of you,I have unresolved issues re our marital problems and yes I,too,mourn the loss of part of myself...the trusting and secure self. The thought that "it could happen again", occurs to me at times and I feel heavy hearted.I see myself as the major giver in our marriage, as well as to our children.As much as I would like to process my feelings with my H, I realize that he is not capable of dealing with it..so I internalize my unhappiness.
Am I jaded or just plain realistic...who knows.
I do wish Michele would write a book for those of us who succeeded in preventing a divorce,but at an expense that continues to haunt us.
The understanding and support I have received on this board is amazing and the reason I remain "connected" to many of you.
Thanks again for your insight and concern...Jenny