Jen, GG, Jw and all, I have been away from this board for a couple of months because I feel that sometimes I do better when I follow my h's lead and just try to forget what happened to us.
Things are basically continuing to improve. I still have issues about h's character and dependability when the chips are down, but I am learning to live on faith.
I do know that I gained strength through all that we went through and that I could deal with the change that a divorce would bring if I had to. My feelings for h have probably irrevocably changed somewhat because I don't have the respect for his character that I once did. I no longer feel sure that I can always count on him no matter what. Some of the very traits that make a man most attractive to most of us as women are the traits that are now diminished. It seems to have diminished my passion or sexual attraction to h. That's hard sometimes.
Jen, many of us oldtimers are seasoned and wiser from our life's lessons. Please talk to us if you need to and know that your situation is near and dear to our hearts!
